Delayed Christmas

So I missed my flight back home for Christmas today, pretty much due to unexpected happenings. The cab that I asked for just didn't show up when it was supposed to, and I didn't make it to the airport in time. This little incident didn't come cheap either. Not only is the time with my family shortened, but it also sets me back an extra $210 to get onto the next flight. I'm not Mr. Banks either so this chunk of change kinda hurt. I'm usually not too concerned about money, so this isn't really my point. It was more so that my mom was upset/dissapointed in my lack of urgency for something as important as catching a flight during the Christmas season. I could tell that my mom wasn't too happy about this, and when my mom's not happy = Me not happy.

This Christmas was supposed to be super happy times, and just like that, it could possibly be ruined. I almost dread going back now because my mom isn't too happy about what happened. Regardless of all the bullshit though, I just stopped and remembered to praise God. I'd be an idiot to blame this on God, or even to stop praising Him. There's a reason for everything that happens, and for good reason too. Whether it be to make me stronger, smarter, a better person, my life is in the hands of the Almighty, so if my heart is for Him, only good can come of any situation. This is however still not really what I had in mind.

What I really noticed for this chain of events is the parralel of dissapointing my earthly parents and my heavenly Father. More and more I'm beginning to feel the spirit work in me. When I fall, it has become more apparent the hurt that it must bring God. What amazing love for a God to create people that would break his heart everyday but still love them regardless. Just like I feel unhappy when i dissapoint my mom, the same goes for dissapointing God. The realization came to me that to be truly happy and joyful is to do what God wants. God being all powerful and all knowing, I would think he knows what would ultimately bring me the most joy. I have always known of these truths, but praise God to be able to experience them like this. It just makes me glad to know that my spiritual desires are becoming more Me, than the carnal or worldly part of Me.

I strongly believe that there's a reason for this, and I'm excited to see what happens these few days while I'm stranded here in London.