"Knowledge is King"-Kool Moe Dee

I went to the Chinese Alliance Winter Conference in Calgary this Christmas break and just got back yesterday. The main speaker for the english side was some guy named Dr. Philemon Choi. He's supposed to be super famous and respected in HK and Asia. He's know for his ministry with the government there, his work with the youth in HK, and he just has crazy experience under his belt. If you got chinese christian parents from HK, ask your mommy or daddy, they probably know him.

It was his first time speaking to just the english side and there were high expectations from him. People from the cantonese side skipped their own lectures to come hear him speak. So I'm like "alright, let's hear what the man has to say", I was excited to hear something that would change my life. Unfortunately dude kinda sucked in my opinion.....I'm not gonna say I got nothing outta his talks, just didin't live up to the hype. I think it might be regardless of how compelling his sermons are know to be, there's still a language barrier such that he can't express himself like he does in cantonese. I could tell Dr. Choi had a huge heart for God, and I could see he was pouring himself out.... but it just didn't appeal to me.

I don't wanna hear the crap that I didn't listen to his sermons with an open heart or anything like that either, if what he said doesn't appeal to me, then it doesn't appeal to me. I'm all for learning more and getting wiser too, so for whatever reason, I just didn't get that much out of it. I was kinda dissapointed, knowing that learning about God is unlimited and I only got so little out of a hyped up conference like this.

I'm not sure, but maybe I'm "overblessed" in my fellowship in London, or that the talks our fellowship counsellor gives have broken me down so much already that I'm immune to Dr. Choi's talks. Maybe, his talks weren't geared towards myself....iunno. There were however lots of people that were clinging on to his every word, and I'm not sure, but I think they were just hopin' on the bandwagon 'cause of Dr. Choi's hype. I could be wrong, maybe they really were touched by God through Dr. Choi and that's great!, but if not, there's nothing I hate more than the fakeness in people. Just be you!....I think it's so dangerous at conferences like these that people just start acting a way that they normally wouldn't so they don't look like an idiot. I'm very cautious on what people have to teach me as well.....I mean, I don't know who these people are and how they live everyday. Who are they to tell me anything!?!

Right now I feel kind of arrogant with my faith and I feel bad about it. I don't think God has given me knowledge so I can look down on people. I'm probably more of a fool myself for having this mentality. This christian life is so hard sometimes, actually it's impossible. The more things I learn, there's more things I get to screw up. I guess thank God's grace for giving me this revelation of how stupid I can be, maybe this is the real reason God has brought me to this conference.