Real Talk not real????

Yo what's up, long time no post.....I've been away in HK, summer's kickin' 'round so I've been kinda lazy on the posts. And posting isn't actually that easy for me, as in it's time consuming. I edit the crap outta these before I send 'em out to the public. You could say Eldon Real Talk isn't as "real" as the name implies. If you see some past posts, it's pretty much just me preaching, and throwing out the little Bible knowledge I know, alot of it isn't really about me. Well at least not the me I don't want the world seeing. Behind this virtual internet shield, I can look better than I actually am. I've actually considered stopping the posts 'cause of the lack of "realness", haha but iunno a little "realness" is better than none.

I'll try to be as superficially real as I can on this one here hahaha. I was in Toronto to see some of my friends get married. I stayed with a few people there, well 'cause I'm not from Toronto and I'm grateful that they even opened their place up. But honestly I didn't feel too welcome. It's not the fault of my hosts, it's just that I didn't consider they'd be working and fulfilling other commitments they have for the summer. Car-less, and unfamiliar with the city, I was sometimes stuck at my friend's parents' homes often without my friend even being there. So in other words I had to hang out with their parents. It's not as ackward as it may seem, but still....I feel like I'm getting in the way of people's lives. And I am.

I hear a lot of "come to HK to work Eldon", "find a job in Toronto", but honestly if I did, I don't think I'd actually see people that often 'cause we'd all be doing our own thing. I'm not a kid, I've seen this at the end of high school before so whatever. I guess we just do what's placed in our laps at the time, I have no control on the things around me. Let time flow a little more, and I bet people won't even remember me.

I'm kinda upset, but at the same time I'll probably, and most likely am already doing the same thing. Someone once told me that a lot of people feel this way after leaving such a strong support group such as ACF, but we shouldn't feel this way. I doesn't matter who it is, people are still just people...they will let us down. Only in God can we trust with our all. Right now I see my life as one sole relationship (that is with Christ), and with people as side things He places on my way to show more of Himself and myself to me. If you're reading this and saying "what about me though Eldon?!?". What about you??....I think I'd have my hands full dealing with the ones around me and learning 'bout myself, and I think you should do the same.

Stay tuned, I'll be droppin' posts non-stop for y'all these next few days to make up for lost time.