1 Timothy 6:7
For we have brought nothing into the world, so we cannot take anything out of it either.
Why bust our ass to strive for all these pretty things that the world has to offer when we can't take any of it with us when we pass in a few decades? Why even do things that'll preserve our name on this earth when we won't be around to know about it? It's all a big waste of energy if you ask me, yet there's a part of me that wants to do it anyways. Regardless of my knowledge of this, sometimes I still want to impress the foolish beings we call humans in my time here on earth instead of looking to impress the one I'll be living with forever.
So, what am I doing that'll last for eternity?!?... I believe God is showing me everyday. Striving to know God, loving His people, obeying and following Him, really anything that shows God's glory will last forever because God is the ONLY thing that is forever.
Right now I'm not exactly sure where God wants to lead me or what he wants me to do, but I'm sure God can use me anywhere He pleases. I mean, I'd really like to do accounting but the way things are looking, it's a big maybe. He knows me better than myself and in no way does He let things happen to me to harm me, so whatever happens....happens, I'll let God do His thing right?
I'm often scared to think this way though, as it could be my own excuse for laziness. I also justify it by saying it's the opposite of ambitious, but I'm not too sure. I'm not sure 'cause I know I'm lazy but still want to be an accountant. I just don't find the worth of working so hard in school to ensure my career in accounting. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't study at all, just not as crazy as these other nuccas at school. I mean..I know dudes that breathe school both christian and non-christian alike. It's their life!! I just don't understand what can be so appealing about killing yourself to achieve something you don't get for very long.
Accounting for the glory of God!?!?! It's possible I guess, so killing yourself for the sake of God is worth it if accounting's where God has placed you to shine. But when I'm not sure where He's putting me, should I still bust my ass to strive for this accounting business? Once again God can use me any way, anywhere....
I really don't want to strive for something of such little value, while at the same time not wanting it to be an excuse for being lazy. Am I Selfish?....maybe, Confused?.....very....but I'm just living life. I'm pleased with everything God has given me, I have joy, I have peace, I'm happy (most the time), and I have my eyes and heart for the Lord.
I know there must be a God when I don't know what the hell is going on in my life, a joy (you could say) in my life knowing that there must be a pure and ultimate being who actually does know what's going on.
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lol~ don't you just love random msgs from random people? *points at the prior comment* anyway, sometimes we... it's like dota. sometimes you push, sometimes you tower hug, sometimes you kill neutral creeps while you don't wanna just bum around. sometimes we strive to further a cause (accounting) and sometimes we just hang back and see what God is doing. I know that in the end, we have the Holy Spirit to correct us if we are wrong. We are listening already, right? =]
don't get sucked into the world's way of thinking (whatever that may be), just do what the Spirit says no matter how contrary to man, as long as it's consistant with God.
i got your back~ we can get owned in the same lane anytime you wanna lane together.
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