Man, I'm so pissed right now, and I don't even know if I should be. Maybe it's 'cause I miss London and the life I left behind there. But these last few weeks, I've been searching for a new church to go to in Saskatoon, I feel the former church I went to, Saskatoon Chinese Alliance Church isn't really for me anymore. There just isn't a congregation of english speaking people that attend there anymore, that and I highly question the leadership and vision of that church, that is if they even have one.
I thought things would be fine and dandy 'cause I was thinking of attending this one church I've gone to a few times before, but I don't know if it's for me either. I don't know if it's right for me to be so critical in regards to this kinda stuff, but it does in fact make me mad the way they operate at this church. It is a rather large church so I guess they have to appeal to a more general audience....and that's kinda where my problem lies.
After experiencing God in such a powerful way in London, I want that same experience here. And I don't know if this church is really what I'm looking for. Chia wrote once that he picked his church from the opportunities that were available to serve, but I don't know if I can completely agree with that. It's people that make up the church, and without that fellowship with other Christians, I don't know why I wouldn't just listen to Hillsongs at home and read some books on my own. I don't think I would feel comfortable just going in, do my little part to further the service, and that's it. (Which is kinda what I did last summer hahaha). I'm looking for at least that little bit of fellowship.
My main problem with the new church is how they kind of distort God's Word to fit the so called "newb" Christian. Often I find their explanations in sermons aren't really biblically founded, and today they've changed some words to a praise song to what I believe would be less offensive to those who are new or don't understand the Word. Am I wrong to say that this is dangerous ground to walk on?? Isn't it dangerous to know a half truth or water down version of God? I remember when we did a Bible study in Men's cell in London, and Yun Ping talked about how the great falling away may happen because the church expects a "Spiritual Santa Clause" rather than a Jesus that tramples the nations with holiness. For whatever reason, I'm just really mad that I see the Truth this way. I don't know if this is really bothering me, or if I'm just frustrated that I'm not finding what I so thoroughly enjoyed in London. I miss Roger speaking. I miss P&R. I miss the fellowship and genuine worship in ACF. And I miss Pastor Mike's sermons full of biblical sense.
Is this my mission field? If so I don't even know where to begin. In London I could bring people to West London and ACF. I don't know how I can bring people anywhere here when I myself am not happy with the churches I go to. There's still some other churches I haven't tried, but I'm just so frustrated I'm ready to settle for the building with the coldest A/C.
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fellowship's definitely important. persevere elDON!
Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:4
its so much harder when ur fighting alone outthere, i cant say i know what it feels like, but i've experienced it a little since i came to TO, I werent completely satisfied with TCAC but i know i can contribute something, and i found a few people with the same or similar desire for truth and a passion for God's love, so i stuck around, and even though i still get destroyed everytime i go on sunday, but i know the people who love God, and thats enough for me. but my pastor doesnt water down the truth, he does however explains all biblical stories not assuming everyone know about david and goliath, not assuming everyone grew up in church, but he doesnt cheapen God's word and Jesus' love. That i can identify with, i think the moment when i feel he is watering down the truth or something is not biblical i'm walking. dont be discouraged, but remember God's promises, he will find u a church where u can truly worship, i'm glad ur doing something about it, most people would just try to grind it out at their old church. Kinda make u wanna find a job in TO huh?
maybe God will put the coldest a/c in the best church for you.
i'm kinda joking-----but not really. it'd be cool :P..literally and otherwise
praying for all of you struggling with finding a church right now
come to scarb-cac~ i don't like it much but then again i know some things that keep me there.
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