We talked about the Millenial Kingdom, on tuesday men's cell, and I believe it confused the hell outta lots of people. The Millenial Kingdom is pretty much when after Jesus comes back the 2nd time, and rebuilds earth to the way it was meant to be before we screwed it all up. The way the dude in the video described the Millenial kingdom didn't really seem all that great to me, and it just stirred up a bunch of questions and obvious flaws in his argument that the Millenial Kingdom is the way he described. It was a very unsettling evening 'cause the session didn't really help me in any way to prepare for the end times, but rather just put out a big maybe of what MAY happen, or is already happening in some people's opinions. I could confidently say that many other people may have gotten even less than I did. The only conclusion I could make outta the night was: Who Cares.... I can only have faith and trust in God, that whether if this "crappy" Millenial Kingdom is to come (the it was described in the video), or if it is actually something much better (the way I HOPE it is), God has what's best planned completely for OUR benefit. Not God's benefit, He doesn't need us for anything!, but OURS. Don't get me wrong though, Praise God that Yun-Ping is leading us into such a crazy path for men's cell this semester. Thank God for his heart that He is doing what He believes God wants him to do.
During and after the night, as I spent time with God alone, I came about a very uneasy feeling. I described it as uncomfortable, but it's rather an uneasy feeling. I don't think it was specifically the topic discussed that night, but rather the combined realizations in me throughout this recent month to make me feel this way. I'm not sure, but maybe.....JUST MAYBE, I'm beginning to experience the spiritual side of things more tangibly. I feel I've known God more than ever this last while from the Holy Spirit, and it just scares me to death. I'm very uneasy with the fact that we're dealing with a being as powerful as God. I don't know if this makes any sense, but I feel I would be more at ease if God were not so powerful. Let's just say, that for whatever reason, it's just been made more apparent to me to fear the Lord. End Times talk just happened to push me over a bit.
Faith, God's power, God's love?.....may be one of the things God is trying to "show me"/"build me in". I don't know... Praise God though, for who else but God can this uneasiness come from!! This makes God more real to me than ever, but just also happens to scare the hell outta me.
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good morning~ i hope the sleep did you well. It's interesting to see the time stamp on your post.
our faith, hope and love will sustain us =]
i'm sure we'll figure it out when we get there.
your title reminded me of a phrase: "what in hell do you want?" (what is in hell that you want?)
yea, it scares the crap outta me too, we're learning revelations in our sunday school in TO, and it hasnt been the most lovey dovey of topics. But it amazes me, the imagery is beyond compare, you should look up like the pictures of the 4 beasts, the 4 horsemen on the internet, its pretty freaky, our pastor showed us a slideshow of pictures representing the whole revelation and blasted music along with it, it was pretty cool. Just awestruck by what God can do. btw I find the random swearing along with preaching the Gospel pretty funny, its like telling people what you care more about? The message I talk about or the fact that I swore?
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